I decided that night that I wasn't going to dwell and be miserable anymore.
Signing on to an online account i'd made a while back I thought the time is now to make new friends, meet new people and start a new life...
Little did i know at that point that my actions in the next 5 minutes would change my life forever.
I had a few messages when i logged on, pretty standard rubbish though.. but as i was getting on with life, i replied to a few and sent a few hello's.. one of course to the guy with a green mohawk :)
Pretty soon after that, he added me on facebook and we started to message each other during the days.. at this point i wasn't really sure if anything would happen more than a good friendship, it seemed that was all he wanted, and i wasn't sure i wanted another relationship at this point anyway.
Besides... he lived almost 200 miles from me!
It was crazy to even think about more than a friendship.
So after a few weeks of messages, things began to get a little more serious.. we exchanged numbers and he asked if i wanted to meet up.... now... the old me would have made excuses, put it off until he got bored.. but i was supposed to be turning my life around, making changes and going for what i wanted.. so i put aside the nervous feelings in my stomach at even the thought of it and said yes.
However.. i was going to italy for 2 weeks and was working in between so the timing wasn't right until after my holiday. So we continued to txt and talk online and while i was away he counted the days until i was home and we could meet <3
When i got back i spent the next week feeling excited about meeting him, we had spent so much time talking and getting to know each other that i felt like i was meeting up with an old friend.. of course i wasn't and there was so much more to it than that! So when the day finally came, i was nervous.. nervous nervous nervous!!! What if he didn't like me in person, what if i didn't look like my pictures, what if we didn't get on, what if there was awkward silences.... i questioned everything that day and worried right the way up until i saw him standing there outside the pub.
Why was i worrying???!
You know when you see someone for the first time, and your eyes meet and although nothing is said, you just know what's being thought?.. It was kinda like that.
We sat in the pub together side by side, and when he wasn't looking i would watch him, watch his ways, feel myself falling for him....
We walked back to mine and watched a film together.
That night he kissed me and all i could think was.. Where have u been all my life??!
So that was almost a year ago now, and despite the miles between us, and the pain it causes everytime we have to be apart, it's worth it. The time we do spend together is precious.
He's planning on moving down here and getting a place together.. <3
We've already made plenty of memories together, and i'm looking forward to a whole lot more with him.
Like i said previously, have you ever thought something was impossible?
I did, and it turns out i was wrong. If you're willing to make the effort for each other then anything is possible, and i know for sure that he's worth every second.
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