On your first day.

The day has come, I feel I've been waiting for this day all summer, hoping it wouldn't come around quite as fast as it has! While I tried my hardest to enjoy the summer and make the most of each day, every day felt bitter sweet as it was one day closer to this day.

While I am so excited to see who you become now you've started school and I'm excited for all your stories and all the things you'll bring home to show me, I can't help but feel sad that this is another step towards you growing up. I've had to let you go just that little bit more.

The days leading up to this day have been hard and emotional, I've cried and I've longed for you to be a baby again, even though I know this is all part of life it doesn't make it any easier!

It's true what they say, the hardest part of being a parent is letting go and letting you grow.

Today my heart is hurting, but I know it will get easier.

You made us so proud today. As we got out of the car, you hugged me tight and said "Mummy I'm nervous.." I was worried you'd get upset, but you didn't, you bravely walked in to the school and when it was time you blew Daddy and I a kiss and we waved goodbye to you.

Well done Bee - You are going to be brilliant.

I can't wait for 3 o'clock...!

Love you x

My baby...

I've never done monthly updates on here about Skye, as I can barely remember what day it is let alone when things happen!!

I do try to note down the important things though obviously!!

I thought I would just do a currently update on her, as she is doing so many great things right now, that I really want to make sure I don't forget a single thing!!

Obviously right now her biggest achievement has been walking!! For a long time now she has been very confidently walking around holding on to furniture and her walkers, but she just never seemed to want to take the plunge and do it by herself!! Even if we tried to hold her up to attempt it, she would just bend her legs and sit down!! Then recently she started taking a small step to get from the sofa to the coffee table and we clapped and said "hooray" excitedly each time so she knew it was a big deal!! Then the other night she took a few more steps and we got very excited and she clapped along as well! We always just left her to it really, as we didn't want her to feel like she never wanted to do it by herself because we had pushed her! Then it was on valentines night that we were in the kitchen, and I put her down to do something, and she was stood up then all of sudden she walked the furthest she ever has right the way across the kitchen!! We all clapped and she laughed, and ever since then there has been no stopping her!! Although sometimes she does go faster than her legs can carry her and she starts to panic! It is so strange seeing her walking around as she still looks so little!

I will try and put up some of the videos we got of her walking as well! :D

Other big things right now, are that she is really starting to communicate and talk a lot more. Yesterday she even said Leo!! Usually if you ask her where he is or if she wants to see him she just replies with "woof woof" which she still does now, but she now also clearly says Leo!!

Other favourite words are, Baby, Yes, No, Mummy, Daddy, Grand dad, Nanny, Splash, Milk, MooMoo (muslins), Peppa, Yum Yum, Finished and Done.

I'm sure there are more!! She is definitely getting better at letting us know what she wants!!

She also loves playing with other children and sharing things! She definitely loves her baby cousin and always wants to look at the picture of him on the fridge! Last night she got a very special treat and he came in the bath with her!! She loved it!

Also lately she has been really enjoying helping me to do things, I let her help me to hang the washing on the drier and when I fold it all she likes to pass things to me and search through the basket for her "moo moo's" (muslin cloths!!) She also loves to rock her baby to sleep and I've really noticed her starting to copy things we do with her, with her doll :) so cute to watch!!

After a tough few weeks, I really feel she is getting back to her normal self! Man were those weeks tough! Then again I have heard that a lot goes on once they turn one and it is completely normal to feel like you've lost your baby you once knew!!

She is definitely not a baby anymore which makes me so sad! But at the same time she is growing in to such a beautiful little girl, and I've never been more proud to call her mine!

Being grown up, isn't half as fun as growing up..

That is so true!
When I was younger i always used to think how exciting it would be to be grown up, be able to drive, have freedom, my own place, my own money... turns out it's scary!
The more i begin to realise how much older i'm getting and how much i really need to start planning for other big life events, the more scary it becomes! When you have these exciting dreams as a child/teenager, you really don't stop to think about the scary side of things! Leaving behind a life you've always known, making decisions for yourself and having no one to blame but yourself when things go wrong!
If we didn't make mistakes we'd never learn, but in knowing that it doesn't make it any easier!
So as me and my boyfriend begin to discuss our future and things we want, i'm beginning to wish i'd listened to my parents and saved more when i was younger! Its' so hard to save so much when you earn so little!.. I work full time and so does he, so how can we earn more.. how can we pay for everything? Home, car, food, bills...Scary!!!
I know i'm not the only one in this position, so i'm finding it useful reading about other peoples money saving tips and advice on this kind of thing..

Gosh how i miss only having to worry about which shoes to wear to school!!